I'll never be at anyone's standards... Im such a fucking mess up. I cant keep any of the friends I want. Nothing will be the same... I fucking hate everything ... dont even fucking talk to me. Get the fuck out of my life, if you're not willing to change. I've changed my whole fucking life for you! Its time you changed for me! I put everyhting I stand for at risk! I fucking hate saying fuck! but I've gotten to the point its my favorite fucking word! I fucking cant swallow because of the pain I feel. I fucking wanted to be a happy person but the people who are suppose to always be there fuck me up even more!