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09 December 2008 @ 06:14 pm
Emoness  
yeah sorry all my posts are either lovey or emo. But gawd its emo today. I feel like I'm gonna puke my guts out. I fucking miss him but its fucked up that I still do. All he ever does is shit on me and I beg for him to be my friend. I hate fuckign relationships sometimes. I supposted to be over this guy and all I ever do it cram my feelings in a hole that I burnt in my heart. I hate myself for this. I need to start loving the right people, but its so hard to stop loving someone you were IN love with. then I fucked up my relationship with my best friend. The only person I knew I could run to. Now I'm like sure he's gonna leave me for ever. Why do I manage to lose the closest people to me. I'm such a shitty person.
 
 
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dookie: I'm Not Scared[info]dookiedragon on December 10th, 2008 03:11 am (UTC)
It's amazing how much of a monster someone can transform into once you get to know them on a more personal level...Most people have so much to hide, all you can really do is put up with them or get rid of them.
azurecoyote[info]azurecoyote on December 10th, 2008 07:21 am (UTC)
Hey thanx, yeah you're right. I wish when you look at someone you can see into them. so many good people over looked and so many who are a wolf in sheep skin. Right now I'm trying to decide is I should take this abuse, or just try to forget it. plah. lol
bloodwolf666[info]bloodwolf666 on December 10th, 2008 03:32 am (UTC)
You claim that you miss him, yet you also claim that he treated you like shit.

Most likely, you don't miss him, but rather you miss the way he made you feel (mainly the way he made you feel about yourself).

You need to hold on to the friends you have, especially your best friend. No one can replace them. I know this from experience and regret every action and decision I made to drive away my best friend. Don't do that. Fix whatever holes you've made with him and move on.

I know, easier said than done.

This may sound harsh, and I'm sorry if you take offense to it.
azurecoyote[info]azurecoyote on December 10th, 2008 07:26 am (UTC)
You know I think you're exactly right. I miss the way he treated me. which he doesnt anymore. Thank you for making that clear. I didnt think of it that way.

Yeah I'm trying to hold on to everyone. Just reality has been stealing my social life away. Work, moving, school, and etc. I want to fix every hole I ever made with any of my friends. Big or Small. Justhe biggest one is hard to fill.

You dont sound harsh at all. Just a good friend helping another out :3 Thank you.
bloodwolf666[info]bloodwolf666 on December 10th, 2008 04:19 pm (UTC)
Good luck with all those repairs. I know how hard it can be. I've just about lost my two closest friends over the last couple of years because we're all busy with school and work.

Glad I could help :)
Taipe[info]taipe on December 11th, 2008 01:55 am (UTC)
:: tight hug ::
If the only thing he does is treat you like shit, then perhaps you are better off without him.
abby_girl91: Sad[info]abby_girl91 on January 13th, 2009 04:18 pm (UTC)
Aww that sucks :/..
I know how you feel but life isnt always the way you want it to be :(..
I hope you are better now and you can talk to me anytime <3
azurecoyote[info]azurecoyote on January 13th, 2009 08:02 pm (UTC)
thank you so much Abby *hugs* things are starting to get better:d good karma
[info]rotini12 on January 14th, 2009 01:01 am (UTC)
Good karma? If karma was a real thing you'd have one shitty life after what you did to me. Aren't you lucky? I don't care what lies you tell your friends so that you come out as the "good guy", when it comes down to it, you're still a bad person.

Oh, and it's not like I didn't give you enough chances for us to remain friends...I would never willingly leave you forever, but you're so hell bent on making it a reality that you leave me little choice in the matter. If you don't want to be friends, fine, but don't act like you're losing something you don't want to lose.

You'll have to forgive me if this seemed callous. The few people I let get close to me have only hurt and abandoned me. The one person I trusted the most has not only done just that, but turned it around to make it look like I'm some monster. Excuse me if I'm a little bitter.
Balto Woof[info]balto_woof on January 16th, 2009 03:44 am (UTC)
Why can't you move on? She has. If you were such a great guy, you would respect her choice and get on with your life as well.

This obsession of yours is very unhealthy. Please leave her be.
[info]rotini12 on January 16th, 2009 10:44 am (UTC)
I just wanted my best friend back. Nothing more.
Balto Woof[info]balto_woof on January 16th, 2009 02:45 pm (UTC)
Once your feelings reach a certain level for a person. There is no way to downgrade them back to "friendship" level. I think she has realized this and your seeing the same thing. The best thing to do for both parties is to split company and move on. Trust me, been here before.


-Balto
[info]rotini12 on January 16th, 2009 03:06 pm (UTC)
I feel sorry for you if you believe friendship is a downgrade.
Balto Woof[info]balto_woof on January 16th, 2009 07:49 pm (UTC)
That's your prerogative.
 
 

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